The blast from my past

21 was the age I got my first car thanks to my dad. I was about to start work and needed a ride. New cars were way off the price range, 40k and above and I couldn't imagine getting a second hand proton. It just wouldn't cut it.

I decided to go back a couple of decades and look for something that was of my taste and reasonable in price. I found an add on Motor Trader and rushed my dad to Jalan Kelang Lama. It merun in colour, wheels that popped my eyes out and a shaped body that got me all excited. Not many people share the same feeling, but somethings you know its yours when you see it and this classic 81' Celica was mine o' mine. To me it was a bargain , 11k , and if you offered me a new City to trade ,I did say keep it , no thank you. The biggest drawback was the leopard prints which filled the interior, well I actually didn't mind having it in there for a while, it gave the Bee Gees tunes a proper stage.

But since then, it has gone through hell and back with its transformation with thousands spent to get it to where it is today. Its going to be my first and my last car so why not. It has gave me memories that I personally share,its one of my prized possession. Its somewhere I can run away from the cruel world, crab my camera,turn up my music up , chuck my wolf-dogs at the back and ride off to the wide and open roads of the world , and ideally if I am not coming back I will grab my bike as well! It is indeed my home away from home.

Empathy

Not to be mistaken with sympathy, empathy takes stride in understanding another persons emotions. Its about taking a walk in their shoes, putting yourself in the similar situations they were in. Well this is what we tell everyone when we try to get them to understand a particular event. This is the catch.....some of us may know but many tend to forget, the term 'walking in someone else's shoe' TO ME actually means further looking at the situation through the other parties eyes, considering his level of thinking and rationality. Never judge a matter through our own beliefs, because naturally we are all very different people, thoughts logically vary. So when giving advice or opinions, never wonder what we would have done, it simply isn't fair to the other party. Just try our best to see what they see, feel what they may feel and do our best in accommodating their emotions as this enormous place we call earth, doesn't revolve around our beliefs, whether we like it or not.

Full of grace

There was a couple of blogs I read a few weeks back jokingly implying God made women second to men to improvise on his prior creation. In so many ways, though its not literally true, God certainly put an extra touch on the female species. Firm yet graceful they command attention, weaken our knees and capture our hearts at just one glance. I never believed in equality between men and women, both have very distinguish capabilities. Its our differences which creates attraction to another though in some circumstances the world has evolved abruptly( another story for another day) Men are animals( sorry guys but it true in so many different ways..well maybe not all) while women have this aura around them that demands respect. Its how I view chivalry , plenty may say he has died or extinct. Well, I honestly have no idea but to me it simply means being respectful and courteous to woman in every possible way no matter who they maybe, friend, mother or lover even just a stranger. Naturally, your lover gets the extra attention because of the connection which is obviously levels higher.
Sadly , this concept has been misused by countless 'boys' so to speak just to impress a woman, and it only survives during the so call 'kao-ing' stages which I believe is so wrong but it does happen nowadays. Chivalry is not a practice, its a way of life and it also denotes, never treat a woman any lesser than how she was treated before.
Women can love like no other and to have that privilege to experience their love is a chance of a lifetime. Their caring and giving nature precedes the only grace left on earth, are all through women.Inspiring is the word. Although minds have evolved and the world has dramatically changed, the only hope I have for mankind is through the grace of women to keep men at their feet. I am just happy, I have found mine and I truly hope she knows. Finally, I tactfully pray, evolution will spare the extinction of grace left here on earth.

power of the mind

This right here is the icing on the cake...with beautiful candles lit...creamy spongy chocolate feeling..... topping my number one list of inventions. Evolution and revolutions are and will always be the result of this creation. From a neutral point of view, to those atheists, agnostics and freethinkers, whats your take on these? How was this sublime invention created? Just curious..

We are so often made to think,act, speak and simply conform to the basic challenges human's undergo. Everything you are doing right this very second are all responses from various parts of your brain.Its amazing how each and every tissue affects our reaction at the very next second......like right now. Lets forget about the common left and right brain theory , here's something relatively less popular, our limbic and cortical brain. While L and R relates to our IQ, this generates our EQ

Limbic Brain

Emotions and memory
determines experiences to be stored for the long term
powerful enough to override conscious thoughts

Cortical Brain

complex
analysis and interpretation
creativity

Emotional Hijacking - The Amygdala Factor

A very interesting theory I came about. Wonder why sometimes we regret an act we committed seconds ago, maybe going off at someone, even a sudden kiss and if anger get the best of you, it can even drive you to do things you never imagined. Some fears that we developed at childhood are the bearing of this hijacks, for example, I am dead scared of cockroaches, yeah since my toddler years if I remember well (well not really scared, more to disgusted..hehe.)

There is an escape link though, this hijack can only biologically lasts for 6 seconds. This is how it hijacks, so be aware:

1. A trigger: a catalyst that generates an impulse
2. A strong emotion (anger, fear etc.)
3. An instant, impulsive and irrational reaction that is
inappropriate to the situation (the reaction need not
be overt)
4. A subsequent feeling of regret or embarrassment

So yes, there is a biological explanation for everything bodily accept miracles of course if you believe in them or even if you are another of my favorite , House M.D, its fine as well. Avoiding the hijacking is perhaps an alternative, always be aware of when and where it can strike. Proper preventive measures will leave you in control of your emotions at periods you wish you had....exp. get out of the situation and take some time to think...

Well so much for the brain..mines getting tired..Well heres something to ponder and laugh upon. How true this one is, just depends on you....:P

Strada di responsabilità

Nothing in life comes easy. o. Its been a rough couple of weeks, well rough is an understatement. Its crazy when you're hit with seemingly 10,000 problems, furthermore when they all are not exactly yours in the first place. They just become yours because of 3 words, responsibility, consciousness and love with inevitably refers to the word family. How far are you willing to go when you hear silent call for help?

I have heard off destructive familial ties which has ended with unspoken events and I am sure we all have heard countless stories that taints our ears. My family has this perhaps unusual bond of showing our love without saying a word and its not necessarily through actions as well. We just seem to be there when any of us are in need.

This was when I was called into service. I always wondered why my ambition to work in Australia and to be with my love was always halted, I guess God sent me home to look after matters my parents just couldn't handle, at least now I know why. Its so strange how society can change someone as it did to my brother. It all started at a wrong government school, mixing with the wrong people. The affect lasted and my job was to make sure it wasn't going to be everlasting. I cant even begin to utter the reasons why but just a message to those with young kids or brothers. Be weary and be alert of your young ones, their minds are little and their hearts are weak. Its our duty to mold and keep them away from earths evil eyes. Its just a measure of our responsibility. For my duty of responsabilità, this is just a piece of my huge cake.

Men's best friend

My rants on animals never seize to end especially dogs, there is a reserved spot for them somehow. I was watching Eight below last night( early today morning :P) about how a bunch of huskies were left stranded in a distant sanctuary in New Zealand. The movie screened their survival through the storms and how most of them survived it all before the owner came in aid. It was a touching story, mostly rel saddening because I hate the sight of dying and dead dogs even if its in movies. ( I rather watch a human face the same fate). Whatever you may say about dogs, there are loyal to death and the ratio of genuinely loyal humans are probably 100:1 and yes I am being optimistic. ( I have seen and been disappointed). My plan was always to grab 2 huskies in the future when the chance arises but ideally I would love to have a sled of them. Well, if its dogs, never say no.Just gotta wait now. Its good to have flashback of old memories with Buddy G, he did look a bit like a huskie, just a little to small maybe. I am happy with Krish but perhaps one day soon....

My letter

Dear Father,

I was at church to day morning, making my weekly visits to thank the Lord like we all do. I wouldn't consider myself an extensively religious man but I do make my average frequent visits. That's beside the point. At the end of today's mass, before final blessing, I was at all ears when you said we finished paying of the loan for the sum of $500,000 which was great. I guess it was for the better as we could accommodate more people and organise more fellowships in the name of our Lord. What baffled me was the next agenda, $300,000 to air condition our church. 'Please give generously' 'we need your support’? I don’t mean to be rude but it seems like all this sum of money is been taken for granted because we know eventually the parishioners will pay up to settle whatever loan. I think it’s a ridiculous amount of money and the nature of obtaining it is utterly wrong not speaking about the use of it. Air-cond? Most people make a trip once a week to church, some a little bit more but no one really suffers through the heat. We are in church to pray, a diminutive amount of sweat is just a little more grace for such a huge sacrifice from Him.
This sum of money could save 3000 people and we are looking to feel a little cooler in church? Furthermore, the electricity bills will begin to rise formidably. We are not in competition with other churches let me remind you, if others have it, we don't need to as well. A church is where people gather with the presence of a priest and altar to accommodate everyone in fellowship to praise and thank the Lord. People in Africa sit on floors under the sun to listen to the Gospel. Air conditioning system? I have no idea how the decision came about but everyone is being misled, including the congregation. Have you ever thought of asking the consensus of all the parishioners on the idea, $300,000 on air-conditioning? I hope you will make a stand on this issue and to emphasise on the value of money involved, pros and cons of the project and finally other alternatives for that amount of money. If everyone decides to go ahead, then so be it. They chose where their money should go as it’s not fair for a group of people to make a decision of this scale on behalf of everyone.
I am sorry if I have been very forward with my thoughts; believe me when I say I am not the only one. The people make the place . Catholics were divided to different denominations in the past not due to a different believe, it’s the people who made them believe differently through selfish actions. I recognise that everything is for the benefit of the people but understand the magnitude of your actions and put yourself in a disabled man's shoe. Millions suffering while our church takes a $300,000 step for just a little more comfort.

A concern Catholic